All of us would have asked this question atleast, if not more, than once; Is it worth the effort? whatever maybe the context, this question resurfaces. As long as the context can be tied to something material, it makes sense because you see the tangible benefits, if not sooner, then later. The complexity arises when the context is intangible. Relationships!!
Who is to judge the answer to this question? The person who is asking or everyone else who, apparently, form the context of this question? What characteristics does this question tell about the person asking it? Does it counter loyalties? Does it negate equality? Does it reason pragmatism?
Whenever this question is asked, its a challenge to self. Why am I making the effort? answer is, because someone has to make it. Why not someone else? answer is, because I cannot affect, change or account for someone else's attitude and inkling. Either I do it or I don't. If you find yourself frequented by these bouts of questioning and answering, what does it say about you? Does it have to say anything about you at all? and if it has to, I raise the question again, who is to judge? who decides?
Expectations. How I love this word and what it denotes. For me its always had a tad bit of negative connotation to it. The lower your expectation, the chances of you being happy, are higher. But, is it humanly possible not to have any expectations at all? Irony is, that you tend to remind yourself for not having high or any expectations at all, just when your expectations aren't met, irrespective of however low they might have been on the scale to begin with. Just when it hurts you, you try and bring yourself to sanity and pragmatism. That's your reasoning to bounce back. All those efforts apparently seem totally worth it, because they help you feed into your sanity, into your righteous view of yourself and the world. That's how your scheme of things work. At what cost though?
What cost are you ready to pay to lower your expectations every time? living in denial, self-esteem, alienation, solitude? or maybe something even more damaging, sense of individuality, your own sense of self?
What cost are you ready to pay to lower your expectations every time? living in denial, self-esteem, alienation, solitude? or maybe something even more damaging, sense of individuality, your own sense of self?