I am sure there would have been moments, frequent moments that is, when each one of us would have wanted a different life, a better life, a slow life, a happening life - the list could go on endlessly on the kinds of life - and we end up complaining, sulking, whining and, for sure, daydreaming of how this magical new life would look like and how it would be. We start spending every wake hour and in-numerous dream hours trying to either work towards it or blame everything around, for not having made any progress in achieving it, it would be too far fetched, not even achieving the bit-its that would make up the whole it.
We soon start living in denial, something we humans are so so good at! What we never realize is that the 'it' life, as I would like to call it, is always ever changing, ever so unpredictable and somehow down the line of being able to touch that zenith, we lose track of the horizon. We miss that point that we started with and we start accepting and living with what we have. Those are called life's success stories, that's where all the philosophical cliches have been invented from; make the best of what you have, look at life like a blooming flower, savor the nectar there is, till its there etc. etc.
I appreciate that philosophy, I acknowledge that philosophy, I sometimes try to live that philosophy, but I still get drawn to that little horizon that I initially set out to achieve. Now, when I look back in time, I realize that there are thousands, if not hundreds of little dots on the horizon and I don't know which dot am I chasing. Which one do I move to touch now? Which one is closest to where I am standing? Which one is way too far fetched?
I have found re-inventing myself, re-oiling myself, shifting gears, re-programming myself so that I don't lose sight of not just the horizon but of myself. The entire process of chasing takes a toll on you and you have to pause for a moment and take stock of what is becoming of you - and don't even get me started on how you affect others by all of this chasing and dreaming; food for thought, but food I will cook some other time - and whether you are capable of even chasing it further. Basically answering the major question, which dot on that horizon is even worth it?
Setting priorities, yeah that will do it! Has it never happened to you that someone else's problem always looks so simple and easy to solve, most easily lecture and impart wisdom upon, than yours? Have you never said to yourself, yeah, had I been in his / her shoes, Oh! wait a minute why would I ever be in his / her shoes in the first place, because whatever he / she is going through will never happen to me? and even if it does God forbid, this is what I will do and how I will do it!
Then why does it happen, more often than not, that when you find yourself in that very situation, keeping everything else not constant (yeah I do hate economics) that you suddenly misplace that little piece of mind paper with just the right things that you knew you had to do to make that situation better? Even worse, you would know it, because you're so wise, but will not find that core strength, the energy or the right mind to implement it sooner?
You will have your friends, family and people on facebook telling you what to do, serendipitous? maybe not! because you've known all of that throughout. You may not realize but some or all of such situations, indicate that you might have just reached a dot or achieved the bit-if of the overall it, and there you would be, trying to deal with the situation, when actually you should be celebrating for having reached where you are.
The horizon is still far away and there are all the other dots that you still have to reach to, what will matter in the end is whether you realized that you touched the dot or you're just dealing with a situation
